We've been foster parents for almost a decade now, which is hard to believe. In that time, we've learned a lot. One thing we've learned is that a lot of people have a lot of misconceptions about foster care. About how it works and what it's for and what it looks like day to day.
I could write pages and pages about this, but since we primarily foster children aged two and under, I'm going to narrow it down to the top three misconceptions about fostering babies.
1) The baby has been abandoned.
I've heard it over and over. "How could anyone abandon this sweet, innocent baby?" "How could his parents give him up?" Well, they didn't. It is extremely rare for a child in foster care to be there due to abandonment. It does happen, but the vast majority of the time, the child is removed from parents who love him and want him back as soon as possible. The vast majority of the time, they are devastated to be separated from their baby and are taking steps toward reunification.
These parents did not just decide one day to leave their child on the steps of the CPS office or drop them off at daycare and never come back. Again, that does happen, but it's very, very rare. These are broken people, not monsters. Usually. The one dad who used his son's arms and legs to put out his cigarettes, however...
2) The baby is too young to remember.
I wish this was true. I really do. But anyone who's had any training in how trauma affects development knows that even if a baby has no concrete memory of being taken from their parent, their body remembers. I think what people really mean when they say, "At least he's too young to remember," is that they think he won't have any lingering effects. Won't struggle with behavioral or developmental issues. Won't be scarred for life.
Again, I wish that was true.
Kids and babies are resilient, sometimes almost miraculously so, but they never escape foster care unscathed. Even a baby who comes to me as a newborn, straight from the hospital, carries loss and grief with him. He also carries the effects of however his mother's life affected him in the womb, which--spoiler alert--we can assume was probably in a negative way if he had to be removed at birth. Whatever drugs, violence, neglect, or trauma occurred in the mother's life during pregnancy...guess what? He carries that with him to my house. The 8-month-old whose grandmother hit his head against the hardwood floor whenever he cried...guess what? He freaked out whenever I tried to put him down on the floor.
He may not "remember" everything that happened to him. But he does.
3) A baby is easier to foster than an older child.
Different? Yes. Easier? No. All kids who have the misfortune of ending up in foster care have challenges to overcome, regardless of their age, and caring for them is always going to be challenging. But the challenges tend to be different depending on the age.
For example, one of the hardest parts for all ages is parent visits. Let's say the child visits their parents for two hours twice a week (Or whatever schedule the state decides. The foster parent has no say in it.). If it's an older child, he has to deal with sorting through his feelings, wondering why the parents haven't gotten him back yet. Disappointment or anger if the parent doesn't show up. Confusion if a parent says something that is different than what other people are telling him. The child has to sort through all that.
A baby, on the other hand, will never know if a visit is cancelled last minute. But they also are not able to understand why they keep going back and forth. You can't explain it to them. And if he's a 13-month-old who doesn't want to go to the visit, and he clings to you when you try to drop him off and he screams "No! No!" but you leave him there anyway...you can't explain to him that the visits are required by law and that you're sorry. So very sorry.
In fact, you can't explain anything to a baby, and they can't explain to you why they wake up three times a night but won't take a bottle or what their nightmares are about when they scream in panic. Sometimes, I wonder if fostering babies is actually harder than older children because when an older child leaves to return to their parent or another family member, you can say, "I'll miss you, I'll never forget you, here's a photo book I made for you, here's my phone number if you ever need anything, I will always be here for you." But when a baby leaves, you can only hope and pray he won't feel betrayed and that his family won't throw the photo book in the trash.
So no, a baby isn't easier to foster than an older child. There is no easy in foster care, no winners, and perhaps that is the biggest misconception of all.
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